:: Black Rose ::

... 2 2 ...

2006-02-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

... 2 2 ...

And so today,
Yours truly turns 22. =)

Yup, Welcome myself to Club 22!

Thanks to does who SMS, called, sang me birthday well wishes.
Truly appreciate it.

- - Happy 22nd Birthday to Me! --

B L O O P - B L O G

2006-02-04T13:05:00.000+08:00

:: B L O O P - B L O G ::

Thanks a lot eh Blogger!
That's a lot of help lar.
Very much eh...

Pppffttt!! Narf!! * jumping & kicking in anger*
I typed in the longest entry yesterday morning, ever longest,
All set to publish and guess what......

No Connection and my entry's gone!!
Damn it!!!
Nak tulis lagi.. I'm just plain lazy.
Forget it lah!

Oh by the way.....
I love my new life.
My new career.
My Blue uniform.
My work enviroment.
I love the (some) new people / colleagues I made! =)

Have I turned work-a-holic?
Hmmm..

Oh ya, I miss my Larling... Mana awak ni?

The Journey Begins.......

2006-01-30T09:25:00.000+08:00

The Journey Begins.......

Definetly. It all started 4 days ago on this date 27 Jan.
After 6 weeks, to be exact 27 days wif the crazy Shakalakan's
and now we are
embarked
deployed to different Teams & Commands.

Dang! I miss all the fun times....

My life begins here.
22... soon.
in love? maybe...

Down

2006-01-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

Down

There will just be a day..
or a moment, where you'll be at your
Lowest peak of your life.....
You feel so down.
You just need to be alone.
You just need those tears welling up in your eyes,
roll down your cheek.
You just don't wanna talk.
You feel so emo. Fucking emo!
Thus, I do soul-searching...

Cuz, yes, at this point of time.
I am............
Yes! Sucks! I hate feeling this way...
ShoooOOooOO!! Go away lah emo feeling!!!

I feel affected by few things happeing around me,
especially people who are close to my heart.

A dearest fren - my colleague, fizzy met wif a road accident 2 days ago.
Fool cab driver!
I almost had my heart drop out when I knew!
She suffers the pain..It so hurt & painful to see her suffer.
Believe me, when she moans in pain, I just wanna cry along & embrace her!
I wish I could take away her pain...
Endure my fren. Get well Soon!

An angel family problem, make me open up my mind.
I pity the little ones.
Then, I'm so afraid of it.
Marriage.
Down...
No. It's not alright. No. I'm not okay.
I dun think I can explain.

New Year

2006-01-16T02:09:00.000+08:00

Brand New Start

Welcome 2006!
Happy New Year!

Hope not too late,
it's better late than never.

A great, career start year for me.
120106.
New colleagues. Fun eccentric retardz united family.
10 fantastic ladies. 4 super gentlemen.
Shakalaka Bunch. Thanks to Zul "Scott".
New organization.
Change of lifestyle. Different life.
Same ol' me, though.

[Courtesy of Fizzy. i miss that woman.]

Goodbye! Will be busy. Random updates.
Therefore, hiatus.

So what's your new year resolution?

Shopping & more

2005-12-11T12:44:00.000+08:00

Shopping & more

Shop shop and more...
Till growing hole in my pocket.

Where else if it's not Malaysia Year End SALE!
Repeat..... SALE!

Yes, at KL now.
=)
Finally 3 days without internet..
Her i am blogging.
Addictive lah.

Can't wait to go home later nite.
Oh ya, am starting my appointment tomorrow morning.
Looking forward....
Apalagi...
Kumpul duit dah leh kawin next year.

..Muahaha..

Ya rite. Guess who jokingly initiated that line?
" Next year lah we get married..."

Hehe... NO WAY!

** I'm loving it **

:: December ::

2005-12-01T07:18:00.000+08:00

December. Brand new month?

Really,
Am so looking forward to this month.
11 days away.
A brand new girl.
A brand new way of life.

Woohooo! !
Estatic giler lah.
Euphoric giler also.
=) Call me insane.
I love it.
You know, I've accepted the job offer.
Ahh.. So that's explains my euphoria. Heh

Eh, I miss Mr. A a lot!

.. She's Back ..

2005-11-28T07:22:00.000+08:00

.. She's Back ..

*curtsey*
Hello you!

Guess who's back?
Yup, She's back! =)

Well, well...
Plenty new stuff,
juz i dun have the tym to blog.

Finally,
1 week break, off I deserve just for my own tym.

Tell you next time I blog.
Promise.
Toodles!

2005-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

::.. See Ya ..::

ill.
tired.
busy.

Miss me alrite! =)
Not gone forever lah.
Just on hiatus.

Procastinator. I am.

SCREWED!!!

2005-11-01T05:33:00.000+08:00

Screwed!!

I'M SCREWED!!
I'M SO DEAD!!
I HATE MYSELF!

I screwed myself at an important interview!

I'm so not gonna get it!!
Pantatz lah Ryehan!!!!

Why the hell must I said that?
Why didn't I said enuff?
I should have said more!

Why only mere 10 minutes with the board of directors???!!! WHY?!!!

AAaaaRRRggGGGhHHHHH............................

Pooooff!

2005-10-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

Pooooff!

Okay dear reader of my blog.
I'm leaving my blog stagnant.
For awhile. Maybe?
Close it down. Maybe? Should I?
[ am getting lazy to update.. heez]

Pardon me for the stagnant and hiatus of this blog.
Tengoklah eh, kalau "hantu" Miss Ryehan dah datang nak update and edit pix.
Tengok mood lah...
[Pssssttttt.... I've got many overdue pics to upload frm my digi cam & edit & send to you humans who been asking for it.]

Miss Ryehan such a PROCRSTINATOR!!

By the way,
I give my salute to those of you avid blog updaters to find the time to update despite your hectic schedule.

- Salam AidilFitri in 7 days time! -

** i wish i was invisible to make you mine tonight **

~ HIV ~

2005-10-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

~ R A H I M ~

Excite!
oh yeah....
Looking forward.
Go figure...

2005-10-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

Missing again.. Sessh!

Busy.
Fatigue.
Lazyness.

HIATUS!
Will be back.

To the Muslims aquitances:
" Welcome Ramdhan & Happy Fasting! "

** if i was invisible so to see you everyday **

Joyous

2005-09-17T07:33:00.000+08:00

Joyous

Hey!
How come my tag board so Quiet & Silent one sey?!
People.. Tag me lah!
You people don't love me ya?
Heehz...

By the way,
I'm glad.
Estatic.
Eccentric.
Euphoric.
Playful. (Juz yesterday lah over at work.. hee)
I'm just happy lah!

I believed in myself.
I thanked Allah!
And, Alhamdulilah, my hesitations is answered!

=)

If you could read between the lines.
No!
Read between my entries.

Oh ya, Ain't need to "Wake Me Up When September Ends"
I'm waken up half of September.
Yesterday!
=)

Anyway...
I love you!
I love you Firah!
I love you Yan!
------

Well, gotta speedo.
Off to work!

Wake me Up Soon

2005-09-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

Life is Short

HIATUS!
SsssSShhhhHHH...

Stagnant.
Mundane.
Pardon me for it....

Roller Coaster ride in this life.
Now I knowthe answers.

Anyway,
"Wake Me Up When September Ends."
I'll wait for your return.
I know you will. Around & still around.
For only God knows how much her heart misses you.
Just everything about you....
15 days to go.

Goodbye!

Decisions

2005-09-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

Decisions. A? B?

Life is all about making decisions!
Every single min, hour, day.. you have to make decisions.
Even on the slightest, smallest, tiny-winy things.

Then the next thing you asked yourself:
"Did I make the right choice?"
"Is this the smart move?"
"Will I regret later?"

See... Told you.
Those even can be decision choices.
But I am on a HUGE, messy, confuse state.
Should I do this, do that?
Or take this & that?
Be it I graduated, I'm still confuse.

Let's say together: Confuseeeeee

Why the hell do I have that piece of paper?
I feel like a LOOSER!!!
I am anyway.
With a big "L"

Damn it! I need a way out.
Solutions. Answers. Conclusions.
I want this so badly!
Arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
It has been running, playing on my mind every single day.
I just can't come to a conclusion.
It's really frustrating.
It's like a humongous burden on my head & I feel I'm growing shorter day by day.

Besides, my lucky star hasn't been shining on me.
I'm out of luck.

It's race agasint time!

I feel kinda lost without you lah.
'Angel', where are you huh?
---
You make me wonder....

Confettis

2005-08-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

Confettis Balloons Cards

1st September.
Happy Teacher's Day!
..................

To teachers.
trainee teachers.
tutors. (juz like i am.heez)
trainers.
lecturers.
.... out there.... =)

TNT Kickboxing

2005-08-26T09:09:00.000+08:00

TNT Kickboxing

Attention!
Calling Kickboxing addicts.
No more air punching!
Get Real with punching gloves, punching bag, boxing ring!
Come down to TNT launch opening on 8th Sept! For FREE!

(Click images to enlarge)

Reply

2005-08-25T14:26:00.000+08:00

Reply to you

Hafiz - hee.. tak tau malu eh. of cuz lah i miss u tat includes the adik-adik klanz and the rest of the floorballist.. I miss floorball too!!!
sSSHHHH... tak mo lah bilang org. Malu sey.

saq - hi! I havent seen u on my tag b4. I got a silent reader like u eh.. tah2 dier muncul. Mysterious reader! then how come u noe its me & my blog eh? heee... Thanks anyway for reading my rantings yg boring. Could u leave like ur email add or blog address if u have.. i love to read too. =)
dee - hi cik kak! Hee lama sey tak nampak.. *waves back madly*
firah - for only Allah noes how i feel... okie.
HiLMi - *jumps & chase & waves madly at Mimik back*.. hehe

BLACK HOLE

2005-08-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

BLACK HOLE

Down.
Depressed.
Shagged.
Dead Beat.
Heart Ache.
Shitty.
Confused.
Messed up.
Discouraged.
Hurted.
Shaken.
Weak.
Loss.
Brain dead.
Speechless.
Hopeless.
Useless.
Unlucky.

" Is this what you really sure you wanna do Ryehan? "
" Who will help & support me unless it's you mum, dad? "

Where is it? Too bad.....
I'm just fucking hopeless & useless!

M.I.A

2005-08-14T07:11:00.000+08:00

M.I.A

Amazing huh, when someone can go M.I.A & hiatus for really prolong.
Thats it. A friend really went M.I.A. for 2 long weeks and counting on.
The last I heard from this friend last on 3rd Aug.
Not a sound. Simply I'm worried till....
I have been having pesimistic thoughts happening to him.Touch wood!
Idiotlah! Can at least give me a call tak? Well.. I'll be waiting then.
By the way, I'm too gonna go MIA for a while. On hiatus.
Work.... thats it.
Do tag me please, cuz it counts and makes my day. =)
Oh ya, I've got a new, better prospect job that I'm looking forward to start.
I believe I can do it, cuz it takes patience, hardwork and time!
Thanks Sue darling.... =)

2005-08-09T09:30:00.000+08:00

Turns 40.

6 years has gone.
Wow! How tym really indeed flies aye.
6 years ago on this very day...
While the late President Ong Teng Cheong was right infront of me,
there I was at National Stadium baris as one of the Psychological Defence.

Heeez.... Oh ya, I remember we had a cute, good looking Cadet Inspector.
Weee!!

How I miss those days. heez...
By the way, when can I be part of Singapore birthday again?
But this time with the Home Affairs Team?

Happy 40th Birthday, Singapore!
Happy National Day!

Azhar Bday

2005-08-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!
Happy 27th Birthday, to you!

wah! so old already hor.
I still owe you the 1st birthday treat anyway. =)
Where are thou anyway? hmmm...
It's has been a week of your hiatus.
Really hiatus. Not a sound.
You've been miss lah.
When are you returning sey?
Damn them for not letting you home!
Oh ya, it'll be 08.08.08 in 3 years time where you'll hit the BIG 30.
Nice date sey for you to get hitched. *evils lafter*

=)

I need the rest

2005-08-02T10:39:00.000+08:00

I need it!

7 straight days of working without the OFF day!
Dead beat. Damn it!

My knees, my heels, my calf, my foot begining to aches!
Additional of really bad sales.
Haven't been keeping up healthy lifestyle!
I miss floorball trainings & swimming!
Hey! Floorball PESTA SUKAN coming up... Lookin' forward to it!

Looking forward to tomorrow & every Wednesday!
I need my OFF day!!
I need lap swims!
I need the extra sleep.

I need my freaking pay!
Do I have to wait next 28 to get my pay? Lama sak..... grrrr

Oh, When are you coming back here huh? 34 days gone.

Reply to Tager.. yang satu ni

2005-07-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

Reply to Tagger.. yang satu ni.

The 'DOG' Squad -- hello you! yes very much i am being surronded by the 2 ladies, fully entertained, bithcing ard lah as usual.. My entertainer.
Wah! You miss me sey, tak sangka I. Part ni I terharu giler you! *oh so the touching* hehe
eh Alamak! dier bace lah pasal 'sugar daddy'.. hehe.. Siapa eh agaknye? Alah.. adalah satu org ni ada potensi jd my 'sugardaddy'.. Siapa ni eh? YOU ada potensi tak jd my 'sugardaddy'? hehe
yes, you too take care.. InsyAllah. Peluk, cium? Eee taknak.. ada bau Woof woof! hehe

Aquintanceship

2005-07-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

Aquintanceship

Being blessed recently with 2 wonderful, zany, intelligent, irresistatble, humarous, beautiful, pretty ladies in my lyfe - Fir. Yan.
I appreciate your aquintanceship.
Being there for me when I heed for advices, encouragement.
The countless tyms we spent together.
Be it bitching, gossiping, teasing, insulting, kutuking, cracking lame jokes, ... ape-ape je lah. heez
I lurve you both! Thanks lots! =)

Once you work, less wonderful quality times will be spent and there's where you will start too miss the friendships, lafters with the people around you.

I too have been missing my old friends.
Sometimes I wonder, Where are you people? What are you people up to now?

The Malay classmates from primary school
The classmates of Secondary 5A '2001.
The NPCC mates. NCOs. Cadets.
The Poly-mates. W05. Interdisciplinary studies.
The #heavymetal IRC chatters. Seri. Fleng. Faz. Ira. Dayu. Rinik. Reen. Kak J28.
This few people - shid. izal. ita. nanie. liza. mis. fidah.

Where the list just goes on.......... i miss you people. close to my heart.
This one I sure miss lots lah almost everyday. 'Angel'. heeh
** A new friend found, don't put away the old friends **

Reply to Tagers

2005-07-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

Reply to Tagers

Kiera - yes i noe its you cik kak.. heeez fikiring sejap here, there... :p
Firah - Alah, macam kau tak tahu.. Si mamat tu lah yg sikit hari tendon & ligament lutut dier snapped. Ingat tak? hee
eh minah!! lu jgn nak step terharu eh dgn gua! heez.. eh std lah lu kan gua punya 3some partner.. heez..
The 'DOG' Squad - eh wah! tak sangka eh doggy tu dah ada website sendiri.. Canggih sungguh k9 anda ye.. hehe =P
Anyway, welcum back to your tagging world, thanks too for the well wishes. =)
I am getting better, dun worry abt me ok. And you better take care of yourself lah also.
Wah!! tell me tell me.. who is tat special someone u MISSING badly ah? wah, somebody got gurlfren already ke? Dr London ke? hehe

Ouch

2005-07-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

Ouch

Dead beat. Tired. Lethargic. Sick. Pain.

I'm juz so farking tired! Go figure with the calculation - 8 hours of pure standing X no. of days I have to work.
My foot hurts. My heel hurts. My knee hurts. My back hurts.
And best of all, I am down wif the flu virus. Tired tired!!
I need a pair of comfy shoes with cushy inner sole. I need tat Adidas slipon shoes!!
God!! My heel hurts so badly!!!

Wait! I think I need OSIM foot masager.
Oh ya by the way...
I have a shameless fren who shamelessly ask me to send 'it' again back to its '2nd home' due to some unforseen injuries.
Once is enuff! Pasal aku kenangkan kau sebagai kawan dan kau tgh sakit rabakz masih tu!
And please know, I am not rich man daughter ok, I dun sit at home shake leg like tai-tai, so freaking free to send and fetch you.
Please... have some shame ya. =) Oh ya, there's this thing call TAXI?
I am working.
I miss my ladies Firah Faizah.
I miss 'Angel'.

Replies

2005-07-25T10:14:00.000+08:00

Reply to Tagers

Honeyza - hee.. thanks! =) hey you too! Happy starting working of ya dream job soon. Indeed the next level of life.
Yanie - ohhh tiiiddaakkkkk!!! hehe.. dah mmg pun! =P
S_AnGeL - geee.. =) thanks! i will miss you all too. but not 2 worry. Tues my off day, so am gonna come down & hit those balls!
Jaz - hmmm not many... more like indiviuals. Maybe u can ask ard, i only have like 8 of grad pics.. U take care babe!

Welcome to the next level

2005-07-24T08:00:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the next level

Gonna start work today at 11am later.
Helloooooo! Kipling, the next level of earnings + CPF + work work work + tired + serving the petty patrons. *bleiggh*
(P.S: This would just be the temporary job to kill my free tym till I get my "dream job" tat I alwiz wanted to be!)
Goodbyeee! my bumming around at home, chill out at Starbucks wif my ladies, going floorball trainings, catching Men Div 2 leagues...
grrrr....Pantatz!
I'm gonna miss all that.
I'm gonna miss you my ladies and the irksome Matin.
I'm gonna miss my adik-adiks & floorballist over at floorball.
I'm gonna miss floorball & the Exel stick.

From graduation to working. Darlie smile promoter- Rye & Ryan

Will be seeing more of the middle one. heez

My gig buddies - Khai . Roofi . Fir -

3I ~ Irresistable Intelligent Individuals.

My Ladies.

Irksome buddy Matin..( whu irks me lots!)

Darn it! Will miss hitting, shooting the ball & them.
After this will be a hiatus.
Prolong? Temporary?
Do leave taggy aye.. =)

Wonder

2005-07-19T01:58:00.000+08:00

Wonder...

Thanks for calling me a while ago despite the time differences of 7 hours.
Time marked: 1.35am.
It's really nice to hear your voice after so long. I missed those.
The most I miss you so much! I miss you like every any other day. Only God knows.

Unexpectedly, to hear from your own mouth tat you said 'you've missed me so much'. I really appreciate it!
You know dear Angel, sometimes you just leave me with a huge question mark on my head.
Hanging without the answer I wanted or hoped for the least. Always.
The next, I'll wonder and wonder and just wonder.....
Like unexpectedly I hear "something". Should I believe?
Let me ask you this dear Angel: 'Are you really ready and assure to meet and see me already?'

My answer: More then I ever waited and asked for. I'll be glad too.
Sometimes You really leave me wonder and feeling guilty. Confused too.
You know who you are.

A day of glory

2005-07-14T10:02:00.000+08:00

A day of glory

14 July 2005.
Yeyness!!
Its an undescriable feeling & euphoric state I am now.
Later at 2pm would be School of ICT, Graduation Ceremony!
Congrats to my polymates graduating today, so will I!

Remember this, 3 years of hard work do pay off aye.

Ohya, btw, this is the best Birthday present I could present my Mama.
4 days to 18 July. This is for you Mum.
Graduation with a Diploma and Silver CCA Cert of Achievement.

And you can catch a Live WebCast of our graduation from here.

"Pain is Temporary, but Glory is Forever!"

Bay Beats 2005

2005-07-13T08:53:00.000+08:00

Bay Beats 2005

An annual indie bands gig performance.
3 days aways to Bay Beats 2005. Come on down with you frens.
our own bands:
Electrico
My Squared Circle Surreal
B-Quartet Set For Glory
Denouia
ZHEN
Kate Of Kale
Shamejoannshame
Vertical Rush
Concave Scream
Death Of Cinema
The Marilyns
Serenaide
Lunarin
Disco Biscuits
The Pinholes
I Am David Sparkle
bands across the seas:
Copeland (USA)
Brandtson (USA)
Brand New Sunset (Thailand)
Love Me Butch (Malaysia)
Nakedbreed (Malaysia)
Plush (Malaysia)
Tempered Mental (Malaysia)
Furniture (Malaysia)
KLPHQ (Malaysia)
Lucy In The Loo (Malaysia)
Freelove (Malaysia)
Oddstar 13 (Malaysia)

How Now Brown Cow

2005-07-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

How Now Brown Cow

i'm just a girl.
i like my new template layout.
do you?
i like green. i like purple.
green. Green Goblin.
i'm under very low self-esteem state.have been!
[ tags replied ]

boring

2005-07-07T16:49:00.000+08:00

B O R I N G

B O R E D O M

B O R E

B O R E D

This is so FREAKING B O R I N G lyfe!!

I HATE IT !!!!!!

Sleep. Wake Up. Eat. Watch TV. MSN. Internet.
(it juz repeats in a cycle!!)

I DON'T ENJOY IT AT ALL!!!

On My Side...

2005-07-06T13:53:00.000+08:00

On My Side

Euphoric.
Alhamdulilah. Thanks to Almighty. Lyfe has been smooth sailing.

Selection assessment went fine on Monday. 10 gurls outta 60 applicants. My hope & chancss are 50/50. Oh Allah, let me thru for the short-listed 2nd interview. I hope for a decent job and been my ambition way back I was 13.
Today, I've got my relief teaching application approved.
Been doing th calling up. Miss Rye?! hmmm... heehz
Nontheless, I miss my 'Angel' so much, so lots, so badly... heehz
I've got Angelina Jolie lips, you noe. =P Thanks to my jr. ~~Jannah~~ Nurul, for the hard whacked on my lips by accident during training yesterday. It bleed so much & now, my right upper, lower lips swell. heez... You are forgiven. Just watch your highstick next time aye. =)

I was touched by Pwincess Amilyn & the rest of Wyldkatz Floorballist, for thanking me coming down for trainingS despite I'm a graduate. My pleasure Milyn! =)
It's passion and the lurve for it.
Nontheless, I miss my 'Angel' so much, so lots, so badly. Did I just say it again?
Woof woof.... hehez

3 Words

2005-07-05T10:02:00.000+08:00

3 Words

Lyfe for now has been a blyss.
Been great. I'm contented what is wif me now.
Looking forward to an optimistic, brite future.

Firah -- You have been a wonderful great fren. I appreciate you and our tyms together. Lurve ya babe! *winks*
Wyldkatz Floorballist -- You gurls 've been great. Thanks for everything and participating! - Ngee Ann Floorball All The Way! -
Angel -- You are an angel in deed from Almighty. You made me grow wiser, mature up in my head.

I miss you when you are away, Angel. - AcidBurn - *heeheez*
Take care of yaself over there.
I am fine. Dun worry about me. "Firah's looking over me for you..."

i love you. Yes you. You!

Gone

2005-07-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

Gone. All Gone.

First Ibu & Abah to Indo.
Now 'Angel' going off to Europe.
Great!! Stuck here without Ibu & Abah. ALL ALONE!!
Gonna miss you lah 'Angel'.
Wait! I think I miss you. Do I?
hmmmm......
Have fun with the woof woof over there.
I'll keep myself busy with July activities then.

Tag

2005-06-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

Tag. Tagboard

Stoooppidddd Myshoutbox tagboard! Really unable to taggy.. Moronic!
So, heez. I've got a new taggyboard by Shoutmix
What now?
Tag Tag Tag.... Taggy Tag! :)

Dreams

2005-06-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

Is The Dream Real?

I'm awaken by the heat despite I've my aircon on. Maybe it's just my body temperature. Rushed to the loo.. Oh! So now I noe why I'm awaken. Now here I am.
Blogging.
I wished I could sleep on. Sleep on dreaming about you. It's still fresh in my head. I wished I hadn't woken up.. I wanna continue dreaming about you. It's the sweetest dream about you. And I.... OK. Let me smile on. =) I thot it was reality. Chey... Bedek only.
Nevermind. I'm off to fantasizing dreaming about you again.
Maybe I miss you too much. Maybe I'm addicted you. Foolish me. heez...
Oh Batman.. uhhh Christian Bale! =P
Nolah.. it's the 'Angel' i dreamt of.

Imagine the 'Angel' is Batman = Christian Bale. * drools*

Sunday

2005-06-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

Sunday....

Everyday is Sunday for me. Everyday is holiday for me. heez
Damn it! My right knee cap problem came back, came back with the pain. The pain and numb can be really irksome & excruciating.. grrrr
Ok.
I screwed up myself today. I had the chance yet... Golly! I screwed up over 'something' that I did it before..
Oh come on Ryehan! I'm really disappointed in myself. I know I could have done better! I had confidence... but why the hell it turn out to be something else.
Ryehan, I am sooooo disappointed in you!
Maybe today, juz isn't my day. How about tomorrow?
The Girl .
Should I give up? Should I let it be? Should I move on? Confused.
Monkey Wash Car Grooming is closed. Surprise aye?! Lasted for 5 months only?
The disappoinment covered by the cherish moment from my babes.
Thanks Firah, Yanie. You gurls made me laff my stomach out today!
Ain't we juz bitchy and noisy in the car today? heez... * Girls just wanna have fun *
..... i miss you....

Lazy

2005-06-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

Lazy

When laziness overcomes me... this is what you get. I dun blog. No Updates. I juz plainly have no mood to do anything. I juz bum around!
Enuff said! I am Lazy cat today! Very!

Its just all about.......

2005-06-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

Its just all about.......

Resumes and Curriculum Vitae(CVs) .
Phew! Believe it, I sent out *count on fingers* 5 resumes & CVs today, No. Make it yesterday 17 june.
I spend my entire Friday evening editing my CVs.
All for the nature of job that interest me. Ain't gonna tell you. heez =P

Its the waiting of being a short-listed candidate can be real frustrating.
And not getting the job can be another frsutration and heart-ache.

Oh Allah! Please let me get the job!

Though mum didn't nag at me for not getting a job.
I know she doesn't like my current state of "bumming at home" since I overheard her talking on the fone prolly with my aunt earlier on why I'm still not working yet.

Shoootz! How my aunts can be so big kepo. Grrr.....
"eh. Anak kau dah habis sekolah kan. Abih anak kau tak carik keje Cah?"
Peh suka lah! Hello!! I'm looking here. I'm not a bummer!
My dear Dad keep pastering me to apply for Teaching. So does Mom.
"Alah.. I'll consider about teaching ye Abah, ibu. "
Anyway I thanked Allah for Dad getting a job after his 2 long years of pension.
Pesta Perdana 8 is such a bore this year.
Again and again it's Aaron Aziz. I am never a die hard fan of him.
Oh puhleezzz... Aaron Aziz = Pelakon Komedi Terbaik?! Wat the hoot?!
'Angel.'
I am so cherished and glad to hear your laughter back again.
I am so cherished by your lame jokes.
I am so happy the ol' you back again.
I have miss you much.....

Happy Father's Day in advance. I love my abah lots! * <3 *

Words

2005-06-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Words.

How words could be as sharp as a knife tat could stabbed you thru the heart?

I am a soul.. I am not being a bit*h or 'ngada-ngada'. I forgive people easily who hurt me and by the next thing I forget.I dun bare grudges. But dun ever take me forgranted. I have feelings too. I spare a tot for others too. I have brains. I think with my brains not heart.
You know who you are.'Angel.' I accept your aplogy.
I hate to hurt you. I dun even mean it with my words to hurt you.
Let me wipe those tears falling down your cheeks.
I apologize to you for my words hurt & hited you!

Lonesome

2005-06-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

Lonesome

Sometimes I just hate you for your attitude and your ego but at the same time I miss you terribly!

Sometimes I feel conversation I pick bores you. You tell me I pick up the wrong topic at the wrong time.

Sometimes I feel wateva things or words I say to you is so wrong to you.
But the thing is I'm in love with you. I miss you.

you can be so ego. your alter ego hurts me so much. i noe you are mature. young adult man. who the heck am i, u wanna listen to my stories rite. i'm only 21. u have been thru wat i am going thru so why bother listening kan? grrrrr..... it hurts me badly lah! So hurt!
you noe... i think its unfair. really.
you expect me to be there for you when you call me.
you say "eh girl... biasalah org tu kan busy skarang. mane ada masa nak call ke sms kite" blah blah....
but where are you when i need you or call you or call you back from you missed call?!
you frantically switch off your hp!
i know you are working.
i listen to you. to your stories becuz i respect you and look upon you as someone gain my knowledge cuz u r full of experience. you are unique, interesting and special. You are so talented and perfect to my eyes but rememeber you have your flaws too.
But at least give me some respect. Some respect for things i like doing. Atleast show some interest.
for now let me tell you.. i hate you For Now but i Miss you!
i miss the ol' sweet you. you made me feel belong and love. Once.
I hope for those back.
You know who you are. 'Angel.'
Anyway All the Best for your exams next week.
I won't bother you. Take care. I do miss you.
Is this what you call patience?

When good companions has to go....

2005-06-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

When good companions has to go....

One by one fleeing to the call of Nation in Tekong. I will miss my good 'gerek' guy 'kakis', or wat eva you wanna say. Sum up, 3 flee to Tekong today. Tomorrow 1. July 1 & Sept 1. No more hanging out, catching gigs or juz talking on days. Well, I guess i'll be seeing you morons after 2 freakin weeks of confindment & weekends bookout. Gua sudah terasa rindu kat lu semua sak... heez
Leaving me and my 2 best gurlfrens, Firah n Faizah and juz other a handful of good gurlpals (you know who you are.) Oh well, whom I guess i may meet them on weekends aje lah nampaknye. They have commitment either school or work. I'll juz keep myself busy going to trainings, teaching tuitions, vol work.. and yes writing good CV & resumes.
Well, when TRACOMM calls, i'll be away then for 3 to 6 mths at PA.
You noe. You should treasure the friendship you build while they still last.
Dun take your frens forgranted despite sometimes how much they can irk you.

Unhectic

2005-06-09T13:20:00.000+08:00

Unhectic

Paranoid. Agitated. Boredom. Lazy. Dislike this current state of my life. I need activities to keep me busy. I hate staying at home. I dun like to talk much when I'm at home. I miss WFC 2005. I miss Team Latvia who irks me & bothers me. I miss going to the East side of Lion City. I miss getting myself busy with work I enjoy doing. I need money. I need work. I wanna finish up my Class 2B. I miss school. Will miss my irritating fren when he flees for the Nation call at Tekong tomorrow. Darn, 2 weeks long. Trust me Mat, u won't have time to pamper urself with Nivea hand moisturizer and foot scrub.. haha.. u r worst then a girl sey. Kalahka aku. =P
Enuff said.
I miss my hectic, busy, occupied life! I feel empty.Totally empty.

L A T V I A

2005-05-30T10:09:00.000+08:00

Team L A T V I A

-:- Me & Fahd with Team Latvia -:-
Not all the time I get to be with foreign National team this close.
Been busy bustling up down Hangout @ Mt.Emily hotel, pick them up, accompany them for almost the entire week of WFC 2005 + filming SF. So now you noe for the long silence hiatus....
Rye - Team LATVIA Liaison Officer (LO). Awesome!!
I gotta give my credits to Farah N Fahdy for helping me out on wkends cuz I wish I could be at 2 places on the same time. Thanks Fahd. I lurve u babe... I owe you one. =)
You & I now so attached to them. Dun forget our lil' momento for them.
** Good Luck Team LATVIA for all the games **

Photo Phantasy for the Cam-whores

2005-05-22T08:36:00.000+08:00

Photo Phantasy for the Cam-whor*s

Cherios to NP Floorballist. Yey yey! Pics are compiled and up.
Go here to view your faces lah... Click here for Save Picture instructions.
Cam-whor*s.... heez
** we are family... **

Out of The Box..

2005-05-19T11:44:00.000+08:00

Out of The Box...

Down Kallang River as Dragon Boater.
Dirt downhill uphill mountain biker along Ubin Trail.
Team bonding - eat out session after each activities makes us closer.
Cam-whores what we have became. Trust me, the boys has became one too...heez

This is the best holidays I ever had. I'm so pre-occupied with activities.
Floorballist you made my graduation from NP a memorable one. I'll cherish every moment.
To my ' adik-adik ' (you noe who u are: aidah, hilmi, hafiz, rafiz, khien, ayu, nani, farhan, qushairi and All you kiddos lah)... I lurve u all! =)
DUN call me ' kakak'. I feel old you noe. Baru nak feeling muda... heez
I miss you all already.
oh yes. Yey yey! Skool gonna start this 24th May! heez
** Dear 'angel', if you are reading this, noe that I have miss you so much. I miss talking to you and listening to your stories. I noe ya out there with a "mission" and I'm glad you'll get the job soon.
(p.s: Cam-whores, i'll compile the pictures. So send it to me. I'll put it up on image webhosting)
** Once a Floorballist will always be a Floorballist **

Worned Out

2005-05-14T07:45:00.000+08:00

Worned Out.

Now why this tells a long silence hiatus.
Been hectic week and more hectic weeks coming up. Who says graduates r graduates? I still have training with and 's' and more ativities coming up. Will be busy prolly till end of June. Worned out. Shagged. Tired. I need my beauty sleep! Then I deserve a holiday break to Middle East maybe. But hey, I love this life. I'm more then glad being able to do the things I enjoyed and my passion for. At least I dun bum around and eat my heart out.. oh no! That juz so unhealthy and make me grow side ways inclusive of my butt.
I think NP floorballist will be worn out by end of next week. heeeez
All I can say FLOORBALL ROCKS!
Ngee Ann Floorball All The Way!
Pain is Temporary.
Glory is Forever.
I miss school. I miss W05.

** I love my Floorball babes and hunks **

Really Pure Silence.........

2005-05-09T12:15:00.000+08:00

Really Pure Silence.........

It will be a hiatus. For long or temporary? So I apologize to those will come here to read and see no updates since the incident dated 3rd May. Besides I've got nothing interesting happening in my life. Am only waiting for ~~9th May (today)~~ ~~for~~ Force Vomit - Monday Session Gig at BarNone. 21st May for The Marilyns at Esplanade Library and The Model Lipstique at P.O.W Pub gigs, 30th May for Serenaide - Monday Session Gig at BarNone.

I'll be busy with necessary activities. So close frens, you noe where are my where-abouts and stuffs I'm doing. Beep me if you need me. Reader(s) do leave tag cuz I'll come in to reply. Take care......
** Silence is Golden **

What My Name Tells About Me

2005-05-08T08:00:00.000+08:00

What My Name Tells About Me.

Although the name Nuraihan creates an active mind and a restless urge to explore new ideas, we emphasize that it causes a restless intensity that defies relaxation. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus.

The name Nuraihan gives you a strongly independent and highly creative nature, with drive and ambition to have experiences and accomplish things out of the ordinary. You can work intently at whatever is new and holds your interest at the moment, but your interest wanes quickly when drudgery and monotony set in. Obstacles to your progress or restrictions on your freedom to act create a sense of frustration which may cause you to feel resentful and even rebellious. You can then become intolerant of others, and caustic and belittling in your expression, thereby imposing stress on your personal relationships.
(by: http://www.kabalarians.com/cfm/your.cfm)

Silence

2005-05-03T09:36:00.000+08:00

Silence

Hiatus. Ups and downs of life. Good and bad.
But today and will be forever. I'm in trauma.
Something happened and i swear who eva cause it I pray that God forgive his/her sin(s).
Let these do the talking......

I miss my Nikon f65 SLR camera worth $900 and my sentimental valuables - clothings, internal garments all worth $300 that was stolen.
Him got broken in with smashed window and those were stolen at East Coast Park carpark D5 early 1.May.2005 morning.
Floorballers who went for the BBQ, I am truly sorry cuz the 3 rolls of undeveloped film has gone wif the cam. =(

It aches, it's a trauma for me. It takes alot of guts to face and do this. This is something dun wanna remember nor happens again.
** In need of psychological counsell **

Such a great relief

2005-04-21T09:21:00.000+08:00

A great relief

ECID (C)
AVFE (B)
FYP (D+)
OCC (C+)
FSF (B)
WISP (A)
ITP (PX )

Pheww!! Thank God! The very last. Am not satisfied with my FYP grade. I spent sleepless nite doing the prototype and report. Where did it go wrong? Report? was hopping to merely get a C+. You promised me Mr Teng.
Becuz of tat, my result slips looks horrid with a D+ when the rest I did better. Well, what has been done is done.
So, I officially graduate from NP. Taking a well-deserved break till Dec, mean-while I enhance mysewlf with new courses & activities. Tahiti? Bali? Fiji? Anyone in Dec?
** What Now?**

The very Final of Exam Results Release

2005-04-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

The very Final of Exam Results Release

Enuff said from my title. 9am. 21st April. Tomorrow.
Tension. My heart gonna come out soon. I will be having sleepless nite tonite...
Wish me the Best and Luck.
22nd April. 7pm. ICT Prom Nite. Suddenly am not looking forward to it at all!
** Jittery **

Tell me, what month is this?

2005-04-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tell me, what month is this?

This song on my blog has been playing on my mind now N then. Hummed thru it almost all day long. Addicted to it, too nice, hehez =) Mungkin Nanti which means 'maybe later'. It tells maybe later, till we'll meet again.
I scored 2 goals for Team AwAwAw. what a name?! hehez
Thanks to our eva-motivating-cheerful-crazy-noisy-funny-crappy-great gk Mr. Y. I was stepped on the foot & screamed "Aww!" and there he goes "AwwAwwAww is our team name!" Ape lagi.. yang lain pun sokong lah.. Pantang betullah the juniors tu. Especially the eva-cheerful year 1 boys, they are juz like my lil' bros. They call me "kakak". I feel old! hehez Well i wanted to play more but gotta rushed to teach, or i'll have scored more. nyehehez
Speaking of my title. Really tell me what month is this? I noe it's April. But it seems my circles of frens around me going thru heartbreaking N shitty times. On the count, i think 5, maybe more, just broke up with their boyfrens / girlfrens whom they dote so much. I feel their pain. Been thru that shit twice! I'm sorry for you guys. Take it easy. If it meant for u to be wif him/her then it's fate. Besides the heart-breaking episode, an another got accused for having an affair wif this immtaure Jackass's fiancee. What the hell u may go. Exactly! That's so secondary skool days. Pantat lah!
Speaking of tat, our dear gk was so jiwangz (emo) today.. sempat defence goal while we were doing target shooting N he singing his heart out jiwangz Malay songs and so this gurl name Ryehan joined in the 'karaoke session'. =p I noe what u r going thru. Our little lunch chats last Thursday abt rltship indeed gives us an open-mind N understanding they opposite sex needs.
Some words of advice: Mawar Bukan Sekuntum, Kumbang Bukan Seekor
If the time has come for u to meet your Miss / Mr Right soulmate, then it's time, else Mungkin nanti akan kita bertemu lagi.....
Well, I dunno who's mine yet. Is it you? Maybe it's Prince William back at Buckingham Palace. Oh, where art thou Romeo William? *giggles*
** Patience all it takes. Patience is a virtue. **

Shock of a lifetime!

2005-04-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

Shock of a lifetime!

Juz opened an envelope. i'm still shock! my eyes can't believe what i see! Yes i am still in shock mode... and i can faint rite now!!

$207 for a month hp bill! Thanks M1! Shockingly, i got no charges for SMS. But WTF! It's the talk time.. ho sey liao! Free incoming call from 7pm to 7 am onwards!
I shall get the $28 M1 free incoming prepaid card.
i'm gonna clear it once i got my pay!
**FAINTS**

in love.....

2005-04-18T11:28:00.000+08:00

in love.....

What are u thinking?
Not true, you got it wrong.
Catched Floorball final match yesterday at TSH. Surprised as I terserempak Najib, Amilyn, Jade and the partial of the FC Squirrels guys over at TSH.
Congrats NHac Trec! Overall Champion! Swiss Club Red Flamingos Western Conference Champion! Moosemen Eastern Conference Champion!
i lurve driving up to east side, despite i'm a failure if coming to east side. Thanks to Firah i managed to find thru the route to TSH. You are my savior girl! =) Drove back to west side was even fun! Kruzing in my car, wind down the window, blasting the radio N we were imaginating if my car was a topless convertaible like my ever dream Peugeot 206. cc. The wind blowing agasint our face. Kruzing at 110km/hr along SLE. What?! i did tat?! okie... :p
i'm in love with floorball N had been since i played 5 years ago. i breathe, sleep, eat floorball! Time to get a new stick! When ever can i be in the National team? okay Ryehan.. dream all u can! Oh puhhleezzz... u've got no standard! So buck up & improve on your target shooting & stamina, then you can talk about it Ryehan! prolly when i turned grey hair.. haha who am i? A small fry! Forget about being like the Quek(s).
Seriously being on club level is fair enuff for moir. The fitness & trainings doubles up from skool training!
Go FC Squirettes! Work our butts up! And we could be around to be the Western Confernce Champion in the next league!
i'm in love with the East side. have alwiz been wanting to live at Pasir Ris or Tampines, but i dunno why Mama dislikes East side. Why eh, Mum? *scratch heads* Is it becuz too Melayu community over East side or further away to N fro to JB? nyehehe
Well, maybe when i get married & own my own apartment, i'll move to East side. nyehehe What they say? Tukar angin. To translate it's a 'change of enviroment.'
Enuff said.
i miss my angel.... still up to try a game of floorball with the clubs, angel?
** Prom Nite 4 days away. I haven't bought the shoes and blazer! Pantat lah! **

Why wouldn't it go away?

2005-04-16T09:03:00.000+08:00

Why wouldn't it go away?

Waking up with this terrible & horrible pain on my left chest. It hurts so badly. It's a terrible feeling & causing me hard to breathe. I dunno what is it but everytime i have this feeling - a 'something not rite' feeling, it truly happens. Infact i couldn't sleep well last nite. Turned it at 2.30am after talking wif Firah & i kept tossing in bed n awaken every hour or so.. i looked at the clock. And it's making me worry. Oh i'm so helpless. What is it? Oh Allah!
Oh Allah! Please protect my parents & family, my frens i care for n my 'angel'.

Sports Enthusiats - Games to Catch

2005-04-15T11:32:00.000+08:00

Sports Enthusiats - Games to Catch

Singapore Sevens Rugby Championship (click here for info & details)
Women's Semi - 15 April (Friday) at Padang SRU. 10am - 5pm (FREE)
Women's and Men's Final - 16 April (Sat) at Kallang Stadium. 9am-12pm N 8pm - 830pm (Standard Charted Ticketing prices)
Singapore Floorball League Division 1 Finals (click here for info & details)
Women Finals - 17 April (Sun) at Tampines Sports Hall. 6pm (FREE)
Moosettesz vs Millennia Skools OSB Owls
Men Finals - 17 April (Sun) at Tampines Sports Hall. 8pm (FREE)
Swiss Club Red Flamingoes vs Nhac Tre No 1
Singapore Hockey Leagues Premiers, Veterans, Div 1, 2 & 3
(click here for info & details)

Cars cars cars....

2005-04-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

Cars cars cars....

10.30am. i'm at Champion Motors West Coast. Send my hubby Suzuki for 20k km servicing.. wow! been 3 years down the road i drove him. how time flies! well i've been eyeing on the latest Suzuki model Swift HetchBack 1.5 L. So cute!! comes in red, orange, black.. N ola! i lurve the red. add polka dots & it becomes ladybug! hehez...
gosh! i'm so bored N sleepy. the only lady driver here among many ugly old Chinese S'porean men who juz goes to & fro to the free cafe corner to fill their cup! Glad over Champion Motors customer svc provides internet corner so here i am killing my tyme updating my blog. how long haven't i blog? i smeel Coffee N i'm loving it..
Finally training resumes every Tues & Thrus morning this April, so i kick some arse! been having mix training with the boys & hell yeah! it feels good to beat them! DON'T treat me like a girl in the court, treat me like one of yours!! i need new stick!! Got eyes on Exel. N i'm jobless! this life bores me! i need work and money! Why da hell ZARA haven't call me back?!! i'm waiting here.. hello!!! *waves hand*
Some unforseen things happens during this hiatus. but i decline to state. My life has been a norm lately and i dun enjoy every bit of it!!
i thank Allah tat my 'angel' is safe!! Take care of yourself dear 'angel'!
** On the Wheels, i want Peugeot 206 cc **

Be bliss away with a Musical Treat!

2005-04-10T08:15:00.000+08:00

Be bliss away with a Musical Treat!

Singapore Police Combo Band performs us a Musical Treat from evergreens to contemporary pop tunes. Entertained away with That's What Are Friends Are For, Kiss, Here Without You and many more. Click here to find out more.
Free Admission!
10 April 2005, Sunday
3pm at Esplanade Concert Hall.
** Pick those boots **

Bike for sale!

2005-04-07T10:10:00.000+08:00

Bike for Sale!

(click to thumbnail)
African Twin? Perfect for desert terrain. Selling for $20 000. Price negotiable.
Tag / Email me to purchase.
NOT for sale at all.
Well this 'someone' wanna me to have it up on my blog. As long it makes that 'someone' happy, i'm happy. Shameless! nyehehehe.........
** Mat Motor **

me..myself... n Ryehan

2005-04-05T14:13:00.000+08:00

me myself N i

You

2005-04-04T14:24:00.000+08:00

You.......

seeing you with another woman a while ago hurts me so much....who is that lady in black tudung? i have wanted YOU so much but i can neva have YOU... but one day i will have YOU with God's will! I noe and i believe...... you'll be mine one day!

i want you - Peugeot 206 cc
i dun mind trading my current babey with you.. heez :p

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it's filthy. it's dirty. i really need one of this. call Monkey Wash
L-R: Owner (Managing Director) of Monkey wash. the lady wif him. Gin grooming him cuz she alwiz get's free ride.

let's pretend nothing happens....

2005-04-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

let's pretend nothing happens....

Happy April Fool!
Let's pretend nothing happens to me.... lala nanana lala wuuhuuu
okie fine! am not. i'm hurt and pain. totally broke down today due to my tolerance level over same issue that was brought up again again -- tolerance gone down... down... And other things tat somehow i'm loosing my tolerance level and patience real soon. it's irksome how some people can irk you without realising it.....
been trying hard to put this pain and stoopid feelings away tat bugging me whole day.. WTF?! Only i can help myself.
Being too tempremental? Too irrational? Too petty? Too sensitive?
Thanks for the advices. It helps. =>

pink lady & gossips

2005-03-31T02:23:00.000+08:00

late nite gurl talk and gossiping wif pink lady

Pink lady. we fought. we argued. we gossip. we hated. we love. we are friends, indeed we are still friends.. we do what gurls do. we've been since we are 14.. i miss u Firah.. i miss the gurls... wooo! it's end of March!

we tried girls online quizes @ GirlsQuizes. Try it & have fun Gurls! ironically we have the great mind thinks alike thinghy. 90% is true. My results.......... :
You Are the Girl Next Door!
You're caring, warm, and you're the girl that nice guys want to marry.
Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.
But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!
You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.

You Are Boyish Sexy
You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys. Whether it's holding your
own in a game of touch football...Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox.
You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.
Your Passion is Purple!
You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.
If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.
But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.
You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.
Men See You As Choosy!
Men notice you light years before you notice them.
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky.
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter.
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait..
You Are a Soft Kisser
Your kissing style is understated, but effective.
You give soft, sweet, and soulful kisses to your special guy.
And that's the key: he's got to be special to get your kiss.
Because you don't just go around kissing anyone. (DUHH !!)
You Should Be In The Donnas
You've got that a bit of an edge to you.
The bad girl that all the good boys want!
Your Scent is Mango
Sultry, sweet, and mellow. You enjoy every moment of life!
Your Gemstone is Ruby
Daring, ethusiastic, and spontaneous.
You are energetic and passionate, with an appetite for life.
You are White Chocolate
You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

**crazy funny but it's true **

what am i to you?

2005-03-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

what am i to you?

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you
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....... a lullaby... really nice. mellow... oh! i'm jazzing to this song by Norah

mind.... x3

2005-03-30T03:07:00.000+08:00

mind... mind... mind...

3.07am i'm still up. Internet connections been running 7:07:02 hours for now. can't sleep though the eyes r shutting like defective roller-shutters. nyeheh..... its my mind. i'm thinking this and that. what to do. will i be able to achieve. arrrghhh.. repetation things has been running on my mind over n over... poor angel. said will call me back but i noe angel's already soudly asleep after 18 hrs of duty... sweet dreams!

the sound of lizard tsk tsk. the sound of clock ticking. the sound of me typing on my keyboard. accompanying me for tonite. damn! i hate being lonely! ok fine...be indiependent lady! damn it!

** lonesome **

isolation

2005-03-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

isolation.......

totally entertained myself 10 hours straight editing my blog layout.... i like it. simplicity. how do ya like it?
in the feel of felt being crushed.worried.in unappetite to eat. mood swings.. its amazing i didnt eat any meal juz snack on kuih baulu dip in tea... prolly my PMS.. arrghh... stooopid PMS!!!
angel SMSed me at 5.30am while i was soundly asleep.. ok i'm lying. i wasnt sleeping well prolly cuz i miss angel or cuz i feel something wasn't right! angel was called urgently to return to work at 4.30am due to some unforseen circumstances at work... i pity you angel. its been almost 18 hrs ya at work. since you came back from L.A last nite, you didnt have enuff sleep. when duty calls we'll have to do it.. guess, i've gotta be prepared for operation duty even at the weee hours tat bothers my beauty sleep when i work for the law enforcement one day. i miss my angel as usual...

Congratulations ex-boyfren!! You've got a new gerl.. all sweet. all alike. i'm happy for you. do like sides attract or opposote sides? herrmm........

monday cherios

2005-03-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

monday cherios

*confettis & wines* yippee! Angel is back from L.A. i'm so happy.. no more time differentiation..
since there's nothing i could think of wat to do.. i holla my cuzin to accompany me out to town since she ain't skooling. Then Arib came cuz he wasn't skooling either.. so it was a threesome outing.. *confettis* it was a sandwich between 2 artyfarty LaSalle-ians. it's been so freaking long since i last stepped to town.. how long? hmm ever since FYP & assg over powered my entire life. And now i'm a free bird... Walking from wheelock to far east plaza to lucky plaza to HMV.. but i can't seems to get wat i want. either it's way off my budget.. i want the Birkenstock Betula sandals cost a big hole in my pocket of $90... can't seems to get a tote i like. in the end got a tote from Lavanita for $15. Now i regret it! Tats me & Rib headed to Penin for vintage stuffs. Motive of the day: survey digital SLR cam of 8.0 pixels..golly! $1500 for Nikon. Damn it!

pause of self-entertainment.....

(click up there to enlarge)
nis as Paula Abdul, rye as Alicia Keys, rib as Ryndall Jackson

nyehehe.......

indie-pendent nite gig vol.2

2005-03-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

indie-pendent nite gig vol.2

Last nite I, you & we for those who went for the Indie-pendent nite gig vol.2 organized by Music For Good: Singapore non-profit organisation was definetly entertained by the Saturday actions. Camra & Couple received luke-warm crowds.. but once the clock turns 10pm.. Waalla! the crowd was exhilirating... As usual Force Vomit was the Saturday crowd's attention. despite it was drizzling tat Sat, Mosaic crew had to cancelled Couple's act. Thanks to FV, Couple performed at from 10 to 10.15pm...
Unexpectedly i met lotsa aquitances over the gig. Then tat's where Fadh & co joined me & my cuzin.
Indie-pendent nite gig vol.2 pics. Click here.

come to a pause....

2005-03-25T13:33:00.000+08:00

come to a pause....

Wishing to those reading my entry or celebrating easter: Happy Easter n Holidays!
All the Best of Luck to those having exams next week! *evils laffter* :p wats exams all this?
23 March 2005, I'm officially out of NP = NO more lessons! NO exams! NO assignments! NO burning midnite oil! *celebrations & confenttis*
oh finally i'm FREE... FREE...!! it was a celebration after AVFE demo. Speaking of which, AVFE demo was a bliss.. our movie ad was hilarious. hehe marn.. My outmost gratitude to Fadhli, Keeyong, Zhonghua, our sexy voice over: Adrian, ivy, Jaz & Weifu to make it a successful bliss though a short clip. (wish i could load & let u bloggers watch) Oh.. i wont be seeing that skool not till 14 July.. i'll be missing my dearest W05 classmates & Mr. Chee. i miss you people already... N to those ain't graduating yet:
"Treasure the Friendship! Love your friends! Cuz it comes once and it'll go someday"
I've had good news b4 i grad... I made it for the 'on-air' DJ audition but too bad i wont be able to co-host on campus RadioHeatwave @ C1 next semester.. how sad! :(
Got job offer with GlobalSportsNetwork to assist Mr. Ngasti.. hmm maybe. i'll consider.
Annddd... i've got my hair highlited.. it's orange brown.. hehe new image people say! i looiikkeee.. *smiles ear to ear*
so here i am.. so free yet so bored. I'm juz waiting for my final results and i hope i clear all my modules. Seriously i dunno wat to do..i have plans but even if i have my frens r busy wif their exams & stuff.. Bummer! one dear fren keep bugging me to club.. hehe thanks but no thanks darl. :)
So i've past a long stretch of 3 years hurdles in a marathon. I've yet few more marathons too look forward too. Many things running thru my mind this past 2 days. Should i do this, or should i do that... I wanna do so many things that i would be able to reach my goals like i did all the listing of enhancement courses i like it much n could take to improve myself....but somehow MONEY is a factor! Singapore is juz too expensive.... at this age i dun wanna be financially depending on my parents.. for goodness sake i'm 21.
Being 21 is a big gift to me.. FYP. overloaded modules. out of NP. grad. miss floorball way too much. Yound Adult. Single. Balloting. Get a Job. Decision etc.. wow!
Dad gave me the freeway to decide my own future, he has no objection cuz he trust me. On the other hand, Mama wants me to continue studies for a degree... Yes, i dun object her idea.... she has got her point there.
But somehow i can't decide wat degree i wanna pursue... Law. SportsScience(Education). Psychology. Local vs Foreign college. Work vs Studies. oh golly.. which one? all tat makes me spin in the head... I wanna something relevant tat i can use it when i work. yup, my mind & my heart say for me to go for Law cuz i eventually mite sign-on with CNB or Prisons or Police.
My "angel" did say.. in order to survive in those govt sector.. wif a "high qualifaction" will take u on. yup. i agree wif my "angel"... takkan asik foreva nak jadi junior officer.. wif a degree at least i can start high.. i'm not boasting but it's da fact. Somehow being a Malay in SG its a tendency of being bullied or being backstabbed or wat eva shit lah.. wat they say -- Malay are Lazy! what the fuck is tat suppose to mean?!
so those Malay(s) out there.. dun stop studying.. KBE & Economically defence! Education is very important here!!
AND to my Chinese frens, dun be bias or backstabber wif your Malay colleague one day. Be judgemental. Be eqaulity. Think and dun be a racist!
I need clear mind. i need to come to a conclusion wat i should do.
For now let me take a break from all the stress. go for holidays and get hold of teaching tuitions & pt job.Thanks for calling 'angel' despite ya in LA.. Sorry to make ur hp bill shoot up. hehe
hehe.. let me share a funny secret with u. Dun laff ok! *hrrmmpphh*

Once upon a time, when i was way back in Sec 5 which i was very Sweet 17 in 2001, my dear teachers and frens alwiz ask me, "what r u going to do when u finish O'levels?" so i replied: " get married with a rich man and bare 10 kids so i can make a soccer team call Team Ryehan." and since then my frens keep teasing me abt tat..how funny when i recall.. lame joke but who cares.. hehe

Then when i am in poly, let me recall yes when i was in 2nd year in 2003, my lecturers asked the same question: " what do you want to do after you graduate wif a diploma?" this time replied: "get married with some bareable man and bare 20 kids of his....." hehe wah! can make 2 full soccer team sey this time.. hehe
fuh! wat a long entry..
** I need to come to a final decision and conclusion which i wont regret **

people whom i treasure

2005-03-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

You'll be missed & treasured

we came as stranger. we left as sisters and brothers.
we played as a team. we fought as a team. we loose as a team.
in loving memory Class W05 (2002) & FC Squirettes

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FREE Local Indie Gig 2005 @ Outdoor Stage - Esplanade

2005-03-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

FREE Local indie Gig 2005 @ Outdoor Stage - Esplanade

Nothing to do and bored? pick tat boots and let's head to Esplanade to mosh:

~~Thursday, Mar 24 2005~~
7:30 pm The Love Experiment
8:45 pm The Jerms
Friday, Mar 25
7:30 pm Ecrus Garage
8:45 pm Ronin

Saturday, Mar 26
7:30 pm Couple (Malaysia)
8:45 pm Camra
10 pm Force Vomit (Singapore)

Sunday, Mar 27
7:30 pm Highrise
8:45 pm If
~~visit http://www.musicforgood.org/events.html for more info.~~

~~Tribute to Loudness Local Gig (Rock)~~

~~(Courtesy of Julie)~~

Last 2 days...........

2005-03-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

Last 2 days...........

yesterday.. doing AVFE & bumming + chilling around Monkey Wash till 530pm.. hehe fun!... ya as usual the monkeys bullys me.. sianz! and guess wat... Jaz drove my car.. hehe test drive in skool. i was her driving instructor for tat while. hehe she lah.. ppl drive on one lane she drove in the middle of 2 lanes. WITHOUT liecense.. hehe so she was making this lame ass remark: " eh Nur, isn't skool where u learn things.. i learn driving lah in skool." haha i lamely as usual added " Ya hor.. since they have monkey wash, y not i open up a driving skool here. since da carparks r empty all da time.." hehe
i came skool at 3pm & when i entered class wf said "eh we leaving already." wat da..?! accompanied Dino a awhile she does her FYP & i did some audio editing. heard our class boys gonna have frenlys soccer match wif out next door boys. why not Dino & i go over & watch da boys play soccer till 7.30pm so at least my mind would be distracted from thinking & missing my "angel" so much..
God! only HE noes how much it 's driving me crazy.. i miss you.... All the best for the battle of the bands comp.
ha.. it was no exceptions this year. our boys LOST 10-3 to next door boys.. for like 3 consecutive rows? boys boys! buck up on your dribbling & tackling stamina. hehe i was screaming & shouting.. i juz get excited when i watch team sports games.. i juz cheer, yell. my adrenaline juz flows way fast up & down. became their sports camwoman. ha.. should see their faces.. panting like neva pant before.. all were gasping for O2 so badly.. hehe *laffs evilly while rolling on the grass field*
it's da second last day before i grad.. 'm missing skool & frens already. Actually i tried holding my tears.. i was emo ysterday.. 'm gonna miss everything.. miss skool & frenz.
tomorrow will be the last we have a demo on AVFE for our last group assignment. Thanks ivy for helping us do.. *smile*
oh.. gonna have a new fresh look on moir tomorrow.. call it Aftermath of skool? hehe
** i wish i had an angel.. for one momment of my life **

Oh.. yummy yummy!

2005-03-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

Oh.. yummy yummy!

Cuteness Hunk Alert 1!
hmmm... scrumptious! yummylicious! oh golly... *faints* hehe
Have you bought CLEO April issue? u should if u haven't... 50 Most Scrumptious Yummylicous Eligible Bachelor. i've got my eys on contestant num 15: Fazril Bahri, 24. contestant num 40: Keith Prakash, 23. *drools again + nibbling my fingers*..

(tanya chua a lucky babe) (Keith Prakash..)
Cuteness Hunk Alert 2!
Manhunt: The Search for America's Most Gorgeous Male winner, Jon Jonsson, 22. *drools more* Those 8 pacs abs.. can i touch it? hehe
oh golly... how i wish i was that white towel & the blue-stripped singlet.. nyehehe

.:: Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder ::.
i miss my mysterious angel.. 10 hours gone.

which one?

2005-03-21T03:08:00.000+08:00

which one?

my mysterious "angel" has gone away for 3 hrs to Los Angeles and i'm missing my mysterious "angel" lots & badly. hurry come back! please come back.... wish you bestest of luck & safety, "angel". i miss you....
Killing some time.. writing resume and cover letter & very very deep thinking for my future....
should i work for 1 year till 2006 may and apply for NTU/NIE. but wat if i cant get into NTU/NIE? should i go to SIM? No.. SIM has no course tat i want. should i go to Aussie / Canada to go for the course i want - BSc(sportsScience). but wat if mum & dad hasn't got enuff $$ for my oversea education.
stoopid me... i miss the application fee payment date at NTU and now i missed a place at NTU/NIE. Teaching has been my passion.

Or should i work for atleast 5 years to gain experience with the open world. i'm torn between signing-on as Narcotic Officer vs Prison Officer vs Police Officer... then continue for my Degree
oh golly.... what should i do. Time flies and i noe i have long way but time just flies.... Teaching or Operational work?
dear "angel"... advise me.. i'm torn between all those...

lil' angelz tat cherish me....

2005-03-20T10:58:00.000+08:00

i'm only happy when it rains...

they are the one who cherish me when i see them. they cherish me when i am down. they make me laff, they make me angry, they make me smile, they make me soft, they make me be a sis, they make me a nanny, they make me a tcher.. they are my lil cute cuzzies angels. i miss them. i haven't seen them for so long...... i miss u kiddos...
i miss my late dear maternal grandma.. may Allah bless your soul. i miss u nenek. we miss you... Mama misses you... Al-Fateha. Semoga Roh mu dicucuri rahmat...

moved

2005-03-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

i have moved.. this my new url. so welcome!

Money Money Money.. No Money no Honey..

2005-03-19T10:27:00.000+08:00

Money Money Money.. no Money no Honey..

what's with da line no money no honey? errrmm... forget it. juz rhyme in my head.
arrrghhhh.. i am in need of money money money... golly! where can i get money??!!
I want moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
M - O -N - E - Y. money.....
right. money = work. I shall seek for work to have money.. work that allow me to make big sum.. hmmm wat da hell!
Current state in need of money for:
1. Prom wear inclusive sandals ( April. this will cost me abt $200)
2. Serenaide gig in KL. ( i wanna go.. i need holiday + shopping! anybody wanna go?)
3. Creative Micro Zen 5G mp3 player. (i want this. yes! its on sale.. $399)
4. Kuta Beach - Bali / Cherating - M'sia backpack holiday wif fellow frens. (anyone wanna go in July / Aug?)
5. Class 2B liecense ( not important but i'll like to have it by end of 2005)
6. watch from Adidas 80's.
anybody kind enuff to donate me some money? *big smile* hehe kidding.

having grpproject mates that can make me hang myself....

2005-03-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

having group-project mates = hang myself!!

should i say i had.. i mean i am having a very 'sweh' last semester in ngee ann poly. to calculate this is the 2nd time i have project mates that go MIA. great... all the time i end up doing most of the editing or amending our group work. and still we receive equality marks. oh! Fuck them! testing my patience... i have my limits people!! limits!
first mr weiliang goes MIA... now another goes missing.. where da heck is your initiative to call us up & ask when do we have to do our group work.. hello! Next wed is our demo... fine! if u dun even bother to take your initiative to ask.. i'll take the initiative to inform out lecturer u didnt even involve... so be it.. u deserve to repeat 1 more semester! so wat if wateva shit ur hp or so is spoil.. there's alwiz other mode of communicatiom... for the rest i understand ur position.. not ur fault.
God!! my rage's accumulating! Thanks people for doing this to me... oh Fuck off!

brand new day...

2005-03-18T10:43:00.000+08:00

brand new day = fantasy world

putting the past behind me, so here i am looking forward to a brand new day. a brand new start. i dun wanna linger cuz it hurts. lurving someone u have loved for so long hurts when she/he is not around. it's so different. i would like to start a new chapter in my life. but i'm not in a hurry. not now. not so soon. there r different man in this world & i yet to meet & noe...................................... golly! man r difficult species.
i have yet to noe who is this "angel" that God send to me... let me able to see this "angel" (if you are reading this dear "angel".. i'm refering to you. yes you! and you noe who u r.)
Does it happen for a reason? or did God make this happen for a test...
dear "angel", you've been nice, so nice...it makes me happy and look froward to brand new day. i have then change my attitude towards my parents. u have gave me impact. u have given me a mature tot. u make me think deep. all this juz makes me wonder and crazy... but i like it. dear "angel" of mine... who r u "angel"? who r u kind angel? i miss u "angel".. touched by an angel.
Probably this is just a fantasy..... i am in fantasy land! i'm in fantasy. Gurls & thiers fantasy!
** when angels comes **

we have come to the end.

2005-03-17T08:46:00.000+08:00

we have come to the end.again.

(and those reading this... if u think i am a PEM-BASTARD b*tch... I dun give a damn! Read or Scarm!)

end. once again we have come to an end. it's never your fault. you have done nothing it lies within me. i am too ambitious. i am too selfish. i have been away sometimes & i noe this is to sudden & drastic. i am sorry to have hurt you. hurt you again. thank you zal.. end it in a pleasant & good way. i dun want us to have grudges or hatered. dun hate yourself ok..
you have been such an angel. i am so blessed to have you. you taught me everything. you taught me to love. to be loved. you taught me eternal love. you taught me patience. you taught me perseverence. you were there for me for the past 5 years.
you will alwiz be part me. i love you!! let time heals our pain...
i am sorry! take care. i wish you success... lurve you!
kau akan dalam kenangan ku.
** a gloomy thursday. a gloomy 17th March 2005 **

Prom Nite 2005

2005-03-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

:: Prom Nite 2005 ::

Tickets bought. Date set. Time set. Venue set @ fullerton. 1 mth 11 days to go. I'm all excited and looking forwrad to this gala event that i have never been too, i mean duh! ya back in 2001, graduation nite at Bt Batok CDANS.. heck?!
Just need to noe what should i wear. i'm not gonna wear those traditional baju kebaya/ kurung. like so common sey. pergi jemputan pakai tu, menziarah pun tu, kenduri pun tu.. haiya! i juz need something nice & not so Melayu! juz need a change. hehe
Those reading this, help me choose the best one. I pick up a retro/vintage theme for myself. .. hehe i'm gonna get the materials & send to my aunt to tailored it for moir.. hehe something that i can invest for myself. not only once.. it'll be a waste. something i can wear for cocktail party (entah bila will dat be), for some retro gig like.. mocca? hehe oh well.. something simple yet sweet. hehe All so pweetty. Can't decide. Which one?

(Like these 2 lots!)

** Excited **

Count down....

2005-03-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Count down....

( i like this.. oh well.)

golly. Time flies. many things happened in between times i didn't blog. it's been nice week for moir. Been swimming yesterday and today. (i got myself a new swimming costume cuz da old one ... the rubber lining became harden like keropok. haha) i'm tanned now despite i swam a few laps. sessh! dah gelap makin gelap terus hangus babe. hehe i'm the kind who catch sun-tanned fast. ish..
oh... pratically went to skool today for a 30 mins test & 'on-air' audition as deejay wit radioheatwave campus radio. hehe it went fine. Pauline said i was confidence, so does tat make me shortlisted for da next round? *hopping so much*
Gonna garduate in 2 weeks time - 23 march. hopping so i can clear my last semester modules. once & for all!
Mark your calender. There'll be great gigs coming up next wkends & next few wkends. Chicks On Speed from germany will perform at Zouk. Darn! tix at $15. holly. they play funny, experimental music. then anoher Indie-pendant nite gig will showcase. Force Vomit performing! hehe Visit here if you wanna know more- http://www.musicforgood.org/events.html & http://www.zoukclub.com.sg
Mark your calendar for fun filled free gig weekends.

Blank.. Bored.. Stress!

2005-03-06T09:06:00.000+08:00

Blank.. Bored.. Stress!
i won't be updating my blog so soon. Busy with Final Year Project & other modules assignments and i have been missing my floorball trainings and league matches!! HORRID!
Darn! i'm missing floorball so much that i have to sacrifice my floorball to assigfnments. I'm clueless what's been going on in training and management and stuff... Please NP floorballers girls, update me, if you are readin' my blog. It sucks to be in final year cuz i'm missing floorball badly! Darn it! i miss floorball. i miss the girls. i miss the aquaintanceship. i miss Monique, my-other-half-forward-in-court!!

(Monique, my-other-half & moir)
Endure!Endure! cuz i've got 3 weeks before freedom & let me count, 4 months till i get my diploma.... Berikan Aku Perjuangan Ya Allah!
(Yeah sure...courtesy of Esprit the Carbonanted mineral drink)

** Endurance! Determination! Outwit! Outplay! Outlast! **

:: The Big 21 ::

2005-02-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

:: The Big 21 ::

I'm turning the BIG 21 tomorrow. They say "21" is the age you get the "key" to your life.. hmm what key huh?
Key to like vote for President election, legallay watch R(A) <- nyehehe i loii-ke! *winks* , certain authorization like to sign some contract 21 is da legal age... dunno ley. i guess no matter if i turn 21 or not, i'm still gonna be the child to my parents. my mom will forvea worried abt me, i still would have my certain curfew... hehe.. i juz dun wanna see my mom so sad & worry for me.. i love them!
21. i'm starting to look into my future and i'm already worrying. what am i gonna do after i grad in like 5 months time blah blah....InsyAllah! i might sign on wif Police Force or i apply for NIE/NTU in Sports Science / Malay. Darn! atleast at NIE i'm paid an allowance of $800 while studying. I'm torn!!
Readers.. suggest to me. hehe
I wouldn't tie a knot so early.. 21 ley.. still so young! i have way 9 to 10 years b4 i get nagged by my parents & relatives - " When are you gonna get married, No'an? " darn! cheese & whiskers! HEHE
darn! married life would be the last thing. i still wanna enjoy my youth life doing the right & fruitful things. sometimes i'm so fickled-minded. One moment i dun wanan get married, one mmt i want. next mmt i dun wanna have kids of my ownm then i wanna. i wanna adopt lah.. haiya! NO NO NO!
still, let's look upon my short term goal. Graduate!!
All The best to Bhumi Band to for APM 2005!
early one wif family al-amen + fruit cake.. dey! no dalcha cake ler.. :P
** Happy 21st Birthday to me! **

2005-02-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

Trend-setter?

Thanks to my "hair dresser" Ms. Dino.. * nyahaha *

From hair chopstick to fork & spoon. So if in case or emergency u need one... you know who to ring..nyahaha...

2005-02-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

MOCCA - My Only One

we had a fight last night
and i caught him mad
makes me feel so sad
and im so shame

*he's my only one
i give him all my love
even though my mom says no
i just go on and on

( no one's gonna take him away from me )
everyday and every night
i just wanna hold him tight
and make sure that everything stays right
and everyday and every night
to dream of him is my delight
and know that he'll stay with me all the way

** Cherising to My only one. The lyric explain it all... **

Boyfren can be such a pain in the ass...

2005-02-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

Boyfren.. oh the boy!

My boyfren just doesn't know tat i love him. i do. i'm in attention dependency. and i'm seeking. i need u. he doesn't know tat i missed the old times. I can feel we are loosing the sparks... we ain't like before. U go nothing & nothing when there is something bothering u, when i asked. I keep asking myself... You say you are sick of everything.. & u say nothing when i ask wat u are sick of... we go the opposite ways. I like this and you dun. U like tat and i dun... How do we compromise to that? we dun date no more. yes i noe i'm busy. Busy wif my own life. U noe i cant go out so late nite... but u still ask. who else to be blame in this boat when its only you & i.. u say dun blame you.. so who else? of cuz it's me. I'm so confused Zal... very confused! Confused.Puzzeled. i wanna talk but u dun. When can we talk?

A day can make a difference. We are in our own world when we are both together in the same space shuttle. I'm so confused...

Oh God! Give me strength, give me love.

i love u!

A Bass would be nice for my berfday...

2005-02-10T02:17:00.000+08:00

a Bass would be nicey for my berfday...

darn! i wanna learn play da bass. ok.. did some hands on, on the guitars & i usually cant reach da chords.. my fingers r short.. & i gave up half way.. hehe so i decided to play the bass.. i wanna learn then i can switch to guitar... let see... how bout some nice, cheap & good bass for me huh peps on my berfday?! hehe (i'm so darn thick skinned.. hehe ) wish mummy or daddy would get me those.. or someone juz so nice to present me these lovely bass... i can jam once i master from my sifu ZaL.. then i can gig <-- wait long long lah girl.. dream on in ur paradise.. hehe :)
(Fender Standard Precision Bass. i want this mum dad!)
** Come on Eileen..**

Amazing.. such an Amazing Race

2005-02-10T00:13:00.000+08:00

Amazing.. such an Amazing Race

wow! i must say Amazing race 6 is really truly an amazing race.. we have different sorts of couples with different sorts of behaviour. Being both fire, both ice or one party fire another is give in and tuff & competitive competitors .. but i'm so happy for Fredy & Kendra! Congrats lovers! Yippe! they r my fave couple!! Even being the audience i was in euphoria. i was so nervous for them.. such a tuff fight wif kris & jon.. Such a seldom time u would see them arguing or yelling at each other. Lovely, loving, pretty, sexy couple. They deserve the US$ 1 000 000. like wat's tat.. twice if converted to SG$. hehe SG$ 2 000 000... how come Singapore don't organize such reality TV show like Amazing Race? if they do.. i wanna do it wif xZalx.. hehe oh well, check out Amazing Race 7 starting 9 March!
Winners of Amazing Race 6..

Eve of "Ghost Town"

2005-02-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

Eve of "Ghost Town"

Woke up as early as 6.30am. No idea wat's got into me.. Nyahaha so my as well i get online & as usual i see xZalx online.. . then he say he wanted to go Sim Lim Sq get some PC components... oh well! I was bored & wanted to be a k-po ass so i say i wanna follow him.. hehe finally i get to be a passenger after 2 yrs! hehe Celebrations!! tu pun cuz Eejad drove lah.. tat's why. hehe so i went over to his place & Lalalala joyiously his grandma was cooking chicken rice & taadaa.. ironically i wa craving for chicken rice lah.. where did tat telepathy came from huh? hehe So before Eejad came we ate his nenek's chicken rice.. Power Gedemmakk! SO farking yummylicious ah da chicken & chilli! Darn! Now i'm craving for chicken rice... shoots!
(our driver Pakcik Eejad dari Indon... hehe )
(Eejad = Mr. Who-didn't-put-parking-coupon-&-park-at-double-yellow-line, sempat posing tgh driving. My hands covering half of Zal..)
Haa hehe.. Eejad sama jugak mcm aku, dah park kereta tak letak cupon... tu nasib "Parking pontianak" takde.. kalo tak dah kena $30 + tow .. hehe Eejad, Eejad. tsk tsk tsk, he park illegally at da double yellow line... hehe U shld be lucky cuz u didnt get fine dude! Well over at Sim Lim we met Zal's fren, Ham & Shahdan.. fark! Lama sak tak jumpa Shadan... hehe got wat eva they wanted then Ham was damn hungry& whining mintak Shadan belanja BK... Ham is 27 FYI. hehe senyum ah tu Ham dpt BK... hehe took some crazy pics while on da way back to Zal's place.. sampai tumpah air Zal tgh bawak.. aiyo! hehe oh well.. it was like 4 Guys and A girl in Proton.. hehe so Eejad sent me home on da way to Eejad's place... but i didn't go home..
(Ham-taro & Eejad = muka step fierce kappe, like Apeks @ Sungei Rd, but selling BK version. Ciggies break)
(Chak! Shadan.. dia dah loose weight ah.. dah takde specky hehe)
it was only 3pm & darn early.. so i SMSed my frens asking if they r free & wanna chill out wif me.. but all seems to be busy. Busy jamming lah (maklum APM kan dah nak sampai), busy skolah.. etc etc and in the end i headed to City Hall, all by myself. hehe Fishes.. it wa spartialy Ghost town already... so walking & walking at City Link then i stopped by HMV.. hmm yey! great songs i listened to Franz Ferdinand. And guess who i saw? i tot i saw Rashid & Wan cuz when i look up as i felt the breeze of someone running behind my back & it looks like Wan.. so i was correct. I did saw rashid, wan & Mamat.. yalah yalah! pretend neva see me.. said "Hi!" to Mamat & he went off.. I'm all alone again. Bought CLEO March issues @ HMV & sat at Esplanade enjoying da air-con all alone.. hehe sedih kan! wat to do.. i left for home by 7pm. Neva did i saw once City Hall stn was so empty.. eee! eerie!
The life of a lonely grrl....
(Emo cum lonely)
** Gong Xi Facai**

True or Hoax?

2005-02-07T08:59:00.000+08:00

True or Hoax?

Ghandi? Mahatmah Ghandi? He's dead anyway.

Gig - Concert Info

2005-02-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

- Gig + Concert Info -

:: Make Room for More ::
A mixed genre gig showcasing new talented local bands. Oragnized by MRFM

Date: 12 February 2005 (Sat)
Time : 3pm - 10pm
Admission: $5
Venue: 0107 @ MICA Building (the one with colorful windows near City Hall)
Bands performing: Unclassified Identity - Unused Valentine - Saprophyte - Ceramic Circle - Comic Strip - Monroe - Storyline - Sallay's Rejex - Ars-nova - Ingrid - Playdoll Maniacs
Click here for details.
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:: Dewa ~ In the Name of Love concert ::

Date: 27 February 2005 (Sun)
Time: 1pm till late
Admission: $35 (vip) $25 (general)
Venue: Fort Canning Green
Opening act by Bhumi Band. Emcee by Sarah Sechan. Organized by Skins-Rumah Production.
Click here for details.

Darn... hectik!

2005-02-06T15:45:00.000+08:00

Darn... Hectik!.. but worth.

wat dah heck! one hell of a hectic day yesterday... but yet i enjoyed! had my 1st kickboxing sesion at 1.30pm kat Amara cuz i missed out da first lesson... darn! i enjoyed the real impact & sparing! and now my muscles are aching! youch! hehe.... i feel like Lylah Ali. hehe then i decided not to go to club training but yet, as alwiz i have fickle-minded i went. hehe yucks! wif all da sweat from KB i didn't shower & changed i rushed to school for training by MRT. I had a fit day yesterday. hehe well i left at 5.30pm from training.. & yet i didnt shower again.. i tot of juz go st8 to catch Serenaide's gig.. but eeks! i smell & sweat so badd. Bad ass! so yet, i rushed home again.. u noe when u need somehting so desperately & urgently, things just seems so slow & taking it's own sweet time. Stupid bus & mrt.. so farking slow... hehe oh! yes finally showered! I'm so yummylicious! qucikly chaged & dress my best..
taadaaa... i reached Esplanade at 8.30pm, GREAT! JUST SO GREAT! i missed Serenaide's gig. arrghhH!! on da way to outdoor stage, terserempak pulak dgn Zu (BhumiBand drummer), waited for him since he went to carpark collect some stuff.. duk kat tangga cam anak kena buang. ( i think Zu is cute.. his smile especially, some say he has some similar appearance like Hans Issac. ye ke? ) oh yeah, i meet him for the first time, close -up & personal at Esplanade on Sat, cuz he decided to meet up me & head for Mocca gig together... but still i hae my fellow Vintage Junkess.
hehe So yet i had to stand up cuz the outdoor stage damn pack & standing watching Mocca perform.. hehe until 2nd period i get to sit wif my usual bunch of Mats Retro a.k.a Vintage Junkees.. wee.. swaying to Mocca's performance.. i loi--ke! After gig-ing.. wee! autograph session.. hehe wee! i get to shake hand with Riko (guitarist) & Indra (drummer) & Arina (vox) .. hehe oh Riko, oh Indra! My cheeky eyes are on u 2.. hehe . Taa daa.. reached home @ 12.3Omn.. hehe b4 i left for gig, mum already nagging.. hehe.. and guess wat.. Norseha Sani (anak metro 1) "together" with Fadly Awaludin.. hehe
to think... Singapore has many creative talents... Indonesia produces great talents - singers + artist... no comments for tat.. isudenly inspore to learn play da guitar & if i still can't i can use my voice... hehe
:: Mocca autographing Khairi's digi cam by Arina.. (wah! digi cam, sentimental value..) & Toma autographing my tote.. :) ::
:: A NZ$1.00 tote bag i bought from NZ tat i brought yesterday to throwin my stuffz ::
:: Taadaa!! After effect of autographing session by Mocca & Serenaide + like full of 6 pins :: ( ni bag kalo jual kat Ebay in 10 yrs time, mesti ada value.. vintage kirakan.. hehe)
** Me and my boyfriend.. I lurve Mocca & I've got cheeky eyes **

LipStix Refelction

2005-02-05T09:38:00.000+08:00

LipStix Refelction

i love this pic. a reflection, dark & fair but one aim.. lips!
Photo Galore from Mocca & Friends gig, click here. Sorry cuz some of da pics resolution is sucky.. hehe
** La la.. whistle to the happy tune **

Shut UP!!!! Juz Shut UP!!!

2005-02-04T14:29:00.000+08:00

Shut UP!!!! Juz Shut UP!!!

I'm in skool.. all alone! I'm supposed to be doing my AVFE (audio & video editing) assignment & yet i'm blog hopping & blogging this entry... I need drive to do it & i can't visulaize in my head how i wanna it to be... darn! it's supposed to be simple & i juz make it seems so hard to do! Hello Ryehan! do it! Else i won't let u go out & go gig-ing @ Esplanade today... Arrghhh!! less then 28 days & i havent even started my database nor GUI for my FYP! Oh hurry do! Plan: 4 feb - do AVFE. 5 feb - kickboxing, training & stay in skool to do my blardy FYP database design! Fuck me!! ( no gig-ing for me tomorro) 6 feb - burn my sun in skool to do my FYP! or i shld juz go gig-ing & catch Serenaide. 7 feb - Meet supervisor thencont doing FYP & touch up AVFE! Shit ass... Tues is half day & wed + thurs is CNY! not again, ghost town! Good teeve progs & yes Ryehan u better do your FYP! Do as much as u can or i'll slap my self!
Shut up u bitches! I'm in this class with fuck 3 chinese girls.. & one of their hp keeps ringing! wif some hip-hop recorded ringtone & I SO SO HATE LOATHE DISS HIP- HOP music! It' so fucking noisy.. & one of them walk here & there wif her slippers pacl -plack so loud! & Stop languishing at me! so i decided to turn up my mp3 player on my laptop loud! SO fuck & shut up b4 i pick up some argument wif u 3 bitches! do ur assg quitely lah!
Fuck.. i've got wisdom toothache.. & us still aches despite i've gone to the dentist yesterday.. they say i might need a wisdom tooth extraction! YIKES!!! ok fine.. i better door the pain will be more excruciating!
I'm so bored! i dun have frens now to joke around wif... & where is my Mr xZaL PettruciX? I'm lonely... wow! Warmest & Soul by Avenge Sevenfold playing & i'm getting so fucking EMO!!!
Once again! SHUT UP YOU 3 bitches!! stop groaning!! oh fuck u bitches.......... this is testing my patience!
(my AVFE Assg proposed idea)
** SHUT UP! **